Let the Past Go

I tried to write something biographical today, but it got me depressed thinking about all the mistakes I have made over the years. It’s time to start over and do things right now that I’m almost 60 years old.

It’s been over two days now since I have had any alcohol. I sucked the last of the THC out of the cannabis vape cartridges and trashed the empty carcasses of the things. I don’t need to alter my consciousness any more than a cup of tea.

Junior has been a real pest today. He is sleeping now, but spent the last ten minutes barking his head off at me. I ignored him and he finally relented. He acts like he is trying to control me, but in fact he can not even control himself. It’s going to take a lot of time getting that dog in shape.

I tried to read a book the other day, but books have started doing things to my eyes. I have a lot of books. I should take photos of books, list them here, and then sell them online. WordPress would even let me do that with my personal account. All I need to do is set up a stripe account. I don’t want to do that though. I don’t want to have to ship product and deal with returns and refunds.

I have to make a break with my past here. I have thrown so much of my life away chasing that buzz. My Mother always used to give me some advice from her Father, who said: “Live each day as if it is your last, because someday it will be.” Well, the past is gone, I have to let it go and move on to better things, even though I am fat, broke, and nearly dead.