The sun is shining this afternoon, though there is a haze in the air. I went out in the yard, took off my shirt, and sat in the sun for about 15 minutes. Even though it is only 71 F outside the sun was warm and felt good on my skin.
It’s been almost 24 hours now since I cracked that last silo of beer. I don’t feel like drinking today at all, especially after the night I had last night. Dad is watching old movies on TCM this afternoon and I read a chapter in a book on blogging. This blog is just my personal place to talk about all my problems it seems.
I have a lot of problems. I have no energy or drive to get things done any more. The best I can do is to do my chores around the house and try to write something every day. I don’t know why anybody would read this journal. I say the same thing every damn day. I have to quit drinking, and drinking is the only thing that seems to give me relief from my problems.
It’s probably one of the last warm days of the year. I ought to go take a walk out to my garden and see if anything is growing out there. I ought to put a squash in the oven for dinner. I ought to find a job that will pay me something that I can work from home on, but then, there is this blog. I ought to transform my body and my mind by watching what I eat and drink and getting a hobby that I can use to better myself.