Early Morning

I woke up at 5:30 AM this morning. It was dark, but the full moon was shining through the fog. I went to bed early last night listening to a talk about losing weight on a vegan diet. I was down a pound this morning, even after eating about 400 calories of fat yesterday. Today I will stick with the fruits and vegetables.

I sang to the moon this morning. “The Moon she dances, like the waves, like the waves on the shore. Making circles, making circles, like the waves,like the waves, on the shore.”

I had many strange dreams last night, but they were not as intense as the ones I had the night before. This is day four for me without alcohol, so I guess I am making some progress. I don’t know what I ever saw in that shit to tell you the truth. All it does is make me stupid and tired. I guess it all goes back to my days in high school, where all my friends were stoners. I should have never got involved with that crowd and have spent my time studying and working on my hobbies. I should have spent time with my family and got into something useful like farming. Even now I think it would be better for me to work for myself and let my dysfunctional relationships just evaporate.

I am listening to a lecture now about how to lose weight with a low calorie density diet. Today I am going to stick to the vegan foods and leave the animal products alone. Dad on the other hand likes meat and potatoes, which is what I have fed him for the last three days. I got some veggies in him last night, some asparagus and a nice salad, some sweet potatoes and leftover hash.

This Covid pandemic is really messing with my limited social life. I used to go to the library every week or two. Right now my library card has expired and I may have to get a new one. The library is open, but they are limiting access. I guess it’s better that I stay at home and avoid people as much as possible. I have a lot of books I have never read here at home. I found my book on Python the other day and should probably look into learning that language and see what I can do with this computer besides watch videos and write. Of course, I am so brain damaged now I don’t think I would be very good at computer programming. Technical shit is kinda beyond me now.

It is rapidly becoming high fall around here. The leaves on the trees are starting to turn color and fall off the trees. The flowers in the window box are dropping off and the little flower garden out front of the house is overgrown with grass. The last time I got into gardening was back in July when I found that little bag of skunk weed in the ditch and got all high in the barn. I guess the weed made me slip into a manic phase, something I miss a lot, and as a result when it wore off I was deeper into the depressive phase I have been stuck in for a long time now. I have a few chores I have to get done soon, like draining the point well pump out in the barn so it doesn’t freeze up in winter. I harvested three good acorn squash that grew out of my compost pile out in the garden. I got about a dozen small hard tomatoes out of the tomato plants that I grew from seeds this year. The deer and rabbits got the rest of my crops.

I feel like working on my blog today, so maybe later I will come back and write some more. I should probably look into writing something useful, but as far as I am concerned this is just my journal that is non-local so it won’t evaporate when my computer dies. That’s all for now. Have a good morning people, or whatever time it is when you read this post.

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