I want to find another place to live. Things are getting too developed around here. All morning they have been bulldozing a trench for the water line across the street. There is a lot of traffic on the road. I don’t like being a slave of the county health department. Most of all, I don’t like being dirt poor.
What I have to do is find a way to make a living. I have been writing for years now and managed to make $271 off my work some years ago, but even so, that was like less than ten cents an hour for what I did. I am losing money on this blog. I don’t have that many readers, and I am not about to write damned stupid articles on how I cure alcoholism with hypnosis and try to sell sessions to my readers like one of my feeds here just did this morning. I am not an expert on anything any more.
It would be nice to win the lottery, but there is little chance of that ever happening. I don’t have any rich uncles at death’s door who will leave me their fortune in their will. I don’t know any rich women to get hitched to, or even any poor working girls who would provide for me. The only future I can see for myself when my Dad passes is as a homeless bum wandering the streets picking empties out of the trash for the deposits. You could say I am feeling a bit down today.
I looked around at land prices this morning. There is no way I can afford my own place. I have a little more than two dollars in the bank now. I can’t get a job because I have to take care of things around the house. Right now I just want to disconnect from everything and start over some place warm. I don’t mean to complain, but I have wasted my life chasing rainbows when I should have been building a business and trying to make my own living and fortune for the future. It’s no wonder all I want to do these days is get drunk and forget everything that is wrong with my life.
The sun is shining this morning, though it is cold. It is finally quiet after the bulldozer moved on down the road. I have to think about what to have for dinner. I have to get lunch for myself soon. I have to stop thinking about all the things I can’t have and be thankful for what I have got. It is time to take a ride down the road and pick up something for our meal. It is time to disconnect and think. Bye for now.